So it’s my third year, and I’ve decided that …. Motion design is way more fun than print. Did I just say that? It seems like another door has opened, or at least I’m seeing a direction in my career path. Although really.. I don’t have that many motion pieces, but it’s been so fun creating these projects. I wonder where this is gonna lead me to.. hmm!

A lot has changed since the last post. 

I think It’s time to change up my routines.

A new year, what does it mean… a Fresh start? Or a second chance to finish what I left off from last year.. I think I rather do the latter. Things were left off so unexpectedly, mainly because I thought I knew what was going on. So what I found out was that.. I really don’t have that much control over my life anymore when I start praying.

God does this, He never tells us the full story. One reason could be that we simply wouldn’t understand it all.

I guess that’s when we become impatient and start asking for things that aren’t practical. Been there..done that.

So anyways, I’m not a new years resolution kinda person, but I do have a lot of expectations for this coming year. Hence… the crazy first week of 2012…

One last thing. Im hoping to finish the old testament this year. Oh there.. thats my one year plan.

There are prayers that are sincere, and genuine.

There’s also prayers that we do for the sake of being good.

I need to remind myself from now on, not only to Love God, but not to reject God.

So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. James 4:17

Jesus = Win.

Why? I’ve never been so optimistic in my life, ever. Nothing makes me sad, nothing brings me down. I’m loving life, and I’m loving everything I encounter and my responsibilities as a student / daughter / volunteer / servant. He really answered my prayers about having Jesus as my first priority and filling me with the JOY of the Lord. I know the Holy Spirit is with me and I do not regret anything I’m doing, and will do. My plan for life is surrounded with Christ’s Love and His will for me. It’s just amazing how much He’s changed my perspectives of the purpose of life.

From not knowing the will of God to seeing a vision of what it means to obey Christ, Hes flipped my world around and filled it with surprises. I used to think that knowing His will means that I know exactly the path and seeing everything in front – but nope, that’s called taking control according to my OWN abilities. I’ve learn to put down everything I have and depend on Jesus for every single decision, because everything I do, I don’t do it myself but it is Him who pours out the power and strength for me to walk on earth against all odds.

PERSPECTIVES

I’ve been taking this class called the Perspectives course with three brothers, it’s about the will of God and how every christian’s mandate is to make disciples of all nations. Matthew 28 has never occurred to me so real and so applicable.

“And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.19 Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” matthew 28:18-20

Everything that God has been planning since the beginning of the bible was about this. His whole plan is to redeem all of human race and make us perfect for the end. The whole gospel not only involves Jesus dying on the Cross for us but every time I hear the gospel it just expands like theres no limit. If you’re thinking that the gospel is for us, then you’re missing the point. The Gospel is for God, to glorify Him and make His name known across all the earth. The Gospel then involves us, the audiences which God chooses specifically to reveal truth & give blessings to – so that His power can be shown and His name glorified.

There’s so much more that I’ve been learning and helping me to be more faithful. It’s all solid food, I wouldn’t be able to understand this before – God reveals according to our understanding and growth. That’s why I never saw how epic missions is before, because I wasn’t desiring it and my naive understanding of God Himself is not sufficient. Moreover, it takes personal devotion and time to study the Word of God & to Pray. Some might be able to do this in a few days, but some takes longer. Whatever it is, we’re All commanded to Love God and Know God.

Finally

God blessed me with a fellowship of believers that are walking along side together. It’s so hard to even find out if a person is a christian these days when you go into a new environment, but He’s placed at least one person everywhere that I’m not alone, and encourages me to be the salt & light. In the end, Christ followers aren’t alone – we’re MADE to be communal  reflecting the community of the Holy Trinity. God the Father, Son & Holy Spirit.

We are blessed, to be a blessing to others.

It’s been REAL busy around ysdn lately, third year is definitely a “break through” year. Compared to first year, we’re all a lot more mature and many have found our own styles. I can clearly see improvements in our works as i was asking teresa today if she felt that we’ve matured as graphic designers since first year. As for me, I’m hoping to finish as a web/interactive designer. Making websites is fun

The future? I’m not quiet sure where I’m going to land on, but I don’t really see myself working in a design firm or for a big corp in a design dept. And it seems like there’s only one more option – to not continue on graphic design as a major career.

Although the path ahead is very blurry to me right now, I have complete faith in God that He’ll bring me to His missions field where I was made to be in.

I’ve been dreaming, yes dreaming that I can be like one of those girls who marries and just go with whatever her husband chooses. Let him make all the decisions and I’ll be the good helper giving him all the support I have. Lately I’ve been hearing a lot about women heros going into missions to the unreached groups, serving God with all their lives and living out what Jesus had commanded us to live. I really look up to these women of God, knowing that Jesus is all they need and just witness with the rest of their lives among people who probably wants to kill them.

One of the most amazing women of God true story I keep in my heart is from the movie “End of the spear”. It starts with their faithful husbands who were martyred by the tribal people, misunderstanding their purpose of visiting. Then these women decided that God wanted them to finish what their husbands wanted to do. It’s truly amazing, to see the sacrificial love happening among us – humans.

Tonight I will continue to pray that the gospel of Jesus will be heard all over the world among every nation, and knowing that Jesus is the gift of Life that God our creator had given us so we can reunite with our heavenly father without doing anything but to have faith in Him. He is the reason that I’m alive

One thing that I’ve learned more about myself, or might just have been a God given desire is that I want to Worship Him!

If you ask me a few months ago if I desire to Worship God, I wouldn’t have anything to say bout it. I was really unsure of what worship is. So I’ve been asking in my prayers for a strong passion, any passion that leads me to His glory.

I can certainly tell you that He answers prayers in the most unusual, unexpected ways – that surpasses my own expectations of change of heart. Up till today, many of my prayers have been answered, and I have been ever transforming into a new person in Christ. There were tears and doubts in between, but when He answers  – I can’t help but to be thankful and this heart inside of me just wants to explode because his grace overflows! And to the extend of this I want to tell people about it, whether they understands or not, God is Winning.

I’m sitting in an empty hallway right now, normal people would feel a bit alone or empty, it’s just that feeling when you’re alone in a corner in the society when you’re not socializing with people. But here I am, feeling overly satisfied with the knowledge of God inside my heart. What else do i need when I have God? Who do I need to spend time with When God is with me? At this moment I have no human desire for anything but to be with Jesus. haha

Something tells me that He is watching me now, that He is reaching to me now and He chooses me – I am His precious child.

I was reading matthew 11:25-30

Come to Me, and I Will Give You Rest

25 At that time Jesus declared, “I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that you have hidden these things from the wise and understanding and revealed them to little children; 26 yes, Father, for such was your gracious will. 27 All things have been handed over to me by my Father, and no one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son chooses to reveal him. 28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

I used to think of this idea of Him revealing Himself only in parts and to specific people a little bit unfair, but God knows our weaknesses and there’s always part of our heart that always wants to be against His ways for we are humans. If he reveals everything at the same time – I can’t imagine the chaos that it’ll cause in our society. People will not listen because it’ll all sound either too unbelievable, or out of the norm. Whatever He does, will always be against the status quo. So I think as christians we are to always look forwards and hope for change In His ways – accept and let God does what He has planned.

Again let me remind you of His Good, Perfect and Pleasing plan that is for the salvation of all nations in the end when we will worship Him when all other kingdoms falls.

Jesus Christ
You bled Your love, laid down Yourself
And gave me life
In naked shame You hung and You were lifted high
Here I lay in awe and wonder
I am afraid
For no one’s ever sacrificed and loved me this way

So on my face I fall under Your heavy grace
Here I lay in awe and wonder
And I wonder

This really illustrates how the weak leads the strong. Our weaknesses might just be what God had planned to use for his power sake! Is this unfair that a man has to suffer so God can reveal His power? To someone who doesn’t love God it might be, but to those who knows and loves God – it is more than honourable to be able to let God work through you.

So just when you think only those with amazing spiritual gifts reveals God’s truth? Nope! God is sovereign on who He choses to perform miracles on, no favorites at all. This is what it means to become Jars of Clay for God, to become that broken vessel containing golden treasures so that the power holding all those precious miraculous things is ultimately God’s work.

And just now I was reading exodus, another verse stood out to me. It’s the opposite of the Blind man story. This time, God choses to spare Pharaoh from death to show everybody His power, and for His name to be famous across the earth. We all know what happens to pharaoh in the end – God imposes His powers as the 10 plagues and finally egypt was afraid.

God could have just struck down pharaoh and free all the israelites in the beginning, but He chose to show how mighty & powerful He is, revealing His all mighty character to us. Reminding us that God is not only an all-loving, healing people, friendly God – but also God of wrath for all those who disobey, that God is just.

so yeah, two of my questions answered.

Why do innocent people suffer?

“Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus,“but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.” – John 9:3

Why can’t God kill all the evil people already?

“For by now I could have stretched out my hand and struck you and your people with a plague that would have wiped you off the earth. ¹⁶But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth.” – Exodus 9:15-16

All for the glory of God.

I’ve been trying to write more songs, but nothing came up as good as what I wrote two years ago.

Even now when I listen, the lyrics were really not from me but what God was telling me to write down. lol. maybe the tune is a bit cheese but hey, God first. And i think why this song always gets me is that it’s talking about the most simple thing that we have to do as christians – spread Christ’s love.